Monday, April 27, 2009

I Miss My Iphone!!!!

My Iphone got wet accidentally and it died. RIP I really miss it, I used it for an alarm clock, I had it set to waking up to a barking dog, I took ad hoc pictures with it, I of course checked my email and it made phone calls so easy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! $400 to replace it which I don't have......until I get more sustainable employment.... ugggghhhhhhhhh

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Someday, Soon.....

Mountains, Aspen, Telluride, Crested Butte, skiing, Chugach, hiking, wild flowers, 10,000+ feet, Nepal, Kazakhstan, gorillas, Uganda, Ethiopia, Paris, El Bulli, Julien Farel Hair Salon, botox, new clothes...all the things I would love to do, some sooner than others if I had the funding, some contradictory relative to my value of sustainability, but I did live in Manhattan on the upper east side for years what can I say?? I say my prayers, keep trying to ferret my way into a new job that allows me to be sustainable financially.....The End...
                                JB

P.S. I REALLY, REALLY miss my Iphone, it died due to water(not a very much either)....Apple is a brand, niche, marketing, technology wizard....................

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter..........


Well, I am procrastinating again before I go out for a long run....it may still be cold but the sun is out..yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I decided I have to appreciate the things I am happy about.....I am happy that I went and plonged(washed the dishes) at the Peter Kump Cooking School on the upper East side of New York, where I took Tech 1 and Tech 2, and Tech 1 I took over and over.....I appreciate learning to care  about sharp knives, quality ingredients and the history and story behind dishes, learning about France, learning about proportions(I still have to buy Michael Ruhlman's new book Ratio). I was lucky to have known Peter and taken classes taught by him and the other memorable teacher I had was Gaynor Grant
And I appreciate that I have traveled, trekked and skied so much, not as much as some but ALOT more than others. I totally, totally miss skiing, trekking and traveling, the only thing I can do is get really fit so when the opportunity arises I can jump on it!!!!!!!!!!!! I am really appreciative of the food, yoga and twelve step community in Chicago and I am appreciative that I am healthy and that I enjoy life no matter what the situation, there is something programmed in me that no matter what the circumstances I find joy in things.........
This week has been a week of loss for me, my Iphone died(not covered by its warranty, so I went for a cheap replacement and I am so at a loss without my Iphone, it totally sucks), I lost my bike key so I have to find the right tool to saw the Kryptonite lock off of my bike, and I am still looking for financially sustainable employment(is this too much to ask???)
        SO with that said I am going to feel the joy of feeling free and enjoying the lake and the air and the joy of being able to run and get the endomorphins cooking and after that I am going to cook and make Ruhlman's corn bread and make more red cabbage and honey and will probably throw some sweet potatoes in the oven as well....
                                      .................Happy Easter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                                                           JB

P.S. Made the corn bread but may mix up the ingredients next time, may add more types of peppers, some sour cream and/or brown sugar and will broil at end with butter on top to get the top crusty. Did not make the cabbage, ran out of apple juice and forgot to buy apples.  The Les Dames d'Escoffier Sustainable Seafood event is on my agenda for next week....I may live in the "Midwest" currently(mountains, mountains pull me in) but there are still a lot of restaurants that serve fish and the question is, where do they get their fish, what is the supply/demand equation of fish, fish populations, the use of Lake Michigan to sustain fish...As I eat less and less meat, and more vegetables, fish is still a healthy alternative for protein and fatty acids...so I am kind of curious.........
                                   

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Have to Find My Place


Went to an amazing party Friday night, Rampfest, sponsored by the LandConnection at the Garfield Park Conservatory. It was my first time inside and it is a gem of Chicago. I felt like I had taken a trip to the Amazon and it was wonderful to be surrounded by so many green things!!!!!! And the event supported a great organization that is trying to secure land for farmers so more local food can be grown in and around Chicago. Not only was the conservatory incredible but all the chefs that supported the event produced outstanding dishes utilizing ramps. So I was very, very, lucky to be able to participate. Thank you Ann and Becky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I continue to watch some video of Shane McConkey and also the late Doug Coombs who both died doing what they loved in the mountains although years apart. I had been aware of Doug Coomb's operation for years, he was involved with the Exum Guides in jackson for a long time. It is one thing to be aware and it is another to do. As I kept sitting in front of the computers and phone turrets with all the angry old and young men, I kept getting farther and farther removed from being fit and able to ski and hike in the big mountains (in a mellow way not extreme) which was always my love and dreams. I really miss skiing, and I miss trekking in the mountains. I never quite got to the point where I could ski down a chute or couloir easily, that was always one of my ski goals and being fit enough to heli ski (mellow skiing) in Canada(CMH) or Alaska(Valdez Heli Skiing) was always one of my goals. It is sad that both are gone but seeing the videos of the mountains, hearing from my friend Ades of all his great adventures in Nepal has me sad that I am so far removed from the mountains right now and they LIVED their lives while they were alive and Ades continues to do that. Deep down I am a mountain chick at heart. I feel so alive when I am at the top of a ski slope or in the middle of a powder run or crossing a pass when it is snowing. Even though I am far from and don't figure on doing back flips off of a cliff, the joy of skiing in powder surrounded by big mountains(for me the mountains were the Wasatch primarily or the San Miguels) is indescribable unless you have been there and your inner compass is tuned to that frequency, the same with crossing a high mountain pass covered in snow. When I had 2 passes to cross in one day on the Tso Morari trek in the Ladakh region, I was so unfit and so slow and the local guide was so cheerful and so cold waiting for me and so patient, but at the same time I was really happy being frozen and tired, I was happy breathing in the air at 16,000 ft and being in such an open, quiet, beautiful place with snow falling all around me, so although it was hard to finish that day and I had to dig deep within myself to keep going, I was really, really happy and lucky to have such a kind guide who laughed along with me. And on so many of the treks I have been on, the porters and local guides have been such role models of how little it takes to be happy and how to be grateful for the simple things and such amazing work ethics be it Pakistan, India, Bolivia, Chile, China or Mongolia. I am so lucky to have had so many experiences but I am just sad that I am not there right now. I realize that all I can do is say prayers and try to do things that will put me in the right place and that wallowing does not work and is a waste and I am so great at wallowing!!!!!!!! I have been lucky, I have BEEN THERE and have been too MANY THERES!!!!!!!...but I still hope to heli-ski in the Chugach someday or do the Ramdung and Parchemo trek in Nepal or ski to the North Pole or climb and hike in Kamchatka. At the same time I feel guilty that I want to do these things, so many people have no chance ever to do it. And it is funny, working at the retail store, none of the employees except for 1 or 2 really know and I think really love the mountains. And most of the customers who come in, buy a piece of the dream, they will never ski, or trek but by buying a piece of the clothing, they feel cool, they feel like they are one of the mountain people. For me it is just sad, I am so far removed from it right now, all I can do is run and stay really fit that when the opportunity presents itself I can make the most of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So by immersing myself in issues to do with nature and food and land in Chicago helps me to channel some of that mountain energy in the short term and there are so many people that I admire because they are really dedicated to these issues.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, Michael Ruhlman has a great entry this week on food writing and writing period. His point is write for the reader not for yourself. Most of this blog breaks his rule, but it is nice to get my thoughts out onto the universe of the web because although no one really reads this, it is satisfying to my soul to know they are out there......
I said to a friend I believe enabling people in traveling and she said to say support and encourage. But I guess I just have to be grateful for all that I have done and been able to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On another note, in the midst of making the Serious Eats Red Cabbage with Apples and Honey, it smells great, was pretty easy and I am excited to taste it when it is done. I was lazy and did not let the sauce reduce down enough but I think it will still taste bueno!!!!!!!!! Made it and it is really good..............

And it is snowing and cold yet again in Chicago and I am going to go out for a short run I need to feel the elements and run to Mind's Eye by Wolfmother.